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| Coming across people with the same interpretation of the world as me just excites me so much. | | |
| I love him so much, i want to show him just how much. Don't know how. | | |
| Friday night i found someone. Im so inlove.
I couldnt get into the gig, being underage and all, so i waited outside the venue accompanied by an acquaintance
listening to some blues on some kid's boombox.
He came outside and greeted me. He got me in to see the gig, bought be a beer and a couple of days later we fell for each other. See, i had met him before, through people and we always were happy to see each other. But little did i know that he had always had his eye on me. He even wrote a song about me, as the girl who loves Patti Smith who he was hoping would once be his.
I am going to have to wait until the weekend to see him and wellllll its driving me insane!!!
All the people i have fallen for have used and abused me and this time, i can honestly say that he could never be that kind of person. So i have decided that after all the heartache i have been through, maybe i have finally gotten what i deserve. It will break me if this doesn't stay the way it is now. | | |
| So sick of caring what other people think of me.
I want to free myself from it all, so badly.
Maybe its something to do with personal growth, or maybe its just fear of dissaproval.
All i know is, im not going to go anywhere far if i care as much as i do. | | |
| After such a long space of time a lot has happened.
Im not going to even bother explaining what, but i cheated on him, with his friend, a friend who is renowned as the greatest womanizer, i dont know what i was thinking.
He trusted me, he went to bed drunk and tired and left me to hang out with his friend, i was under the influence of alcohol and we did things.
I really am so ashamed of myself because by doing this i ruined everything him and i had, everything was going so perfectly and we were both so contently inlove.
After a lot of intense guilt i confessed to him about what happened and now he tells me that im not the same person to him anymore, that he used to think i was really special but now after what happened, i no longer am.
He tells me that he still loves me and that he doesnt want to leave me but what we currently have doesnt feel stable.
I just want his trust back. I dont want him to decide halfway through this week that he doesnt want to be with me anymore. I wish he could just forgive me. I know what i did was terrible and id never do it again, yet he fails to beleive me. I am so very angry at myself.
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